Thursday, November 24, 2011

What a challenge it is to work on ones personality.

I have known for a very long time that I have this problem but never really ever cared to actively work on it. Somehow now I've decided that I am not exactly happy with this warped way of looking at life, which means unfortunately for me a ton of work, fortunately for my family hopefully a better more pleasant to live with me?!

You see mentally, my days are split into sessions, 30 45 and 60 minutes long. This is the problem with me working for myself (had to change that from "working for oneself" as I realize that this is MY issue not everyone's HA) no matter where I am or what I am doing I measure my joy or fun oe whatever by the dollar ammount I would be bringing in if I were at work instead of wherever I am. I am constantly assesing to be sure that the fun or relaxation I am having is worth not being at work. This is exhausting & unhealthy and it's a terrible way to exist!

Enough!

Have I learned nothing form working with my clients who have found themselves faced suddenly with terrifying illnesses/diseases?

Time for a bit of humility on my part.

Here is to a new way of living. Living in the present! Breathing feeling and existing in the present!