Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Embracing the challenge of change in our weekly menu

The fact that I love my kitchen is not newsworthy, well not so much the kitchen itself. I don't love the narrow, cramped galley but do appreciate the counter space after being at Liesl's in New York...each time I return it will seem spacious for a week as I readjust!
What I do love is the fun creativity that happens in the kitchen. As a kid my mom made it so much fun that I remember thinking about how great it would be when I had my very own kitchen! Not a house or a family or a job, just my own kitchen. Obviously cooking was a big part of my childhood, my mother is a genius in the kitchen. She is adept at cooking many different kinds of foods. She was smart, as a young woman each time she made a friend who had lived anywhere but here she would somehow manage to get them to teach them whatever the local cuisine had been where they had lived. She learned to cook some Texan, Chinese, Vietnamese (off the top of my head) all from friends of hers that had spent years cooking for their families in those respective places. Some truly great food came out of her kitchen...it wasn't all that turkey soup that I dreaded! 
When my dads health took a dive, mom had to learn a new way of cooking and she attacked that like she does everything else. Salt, sugar and fat are not easy to leave out of a recipe, especially when you are used to the richness and depth that these ingrediants impart. I think that her attitude has once again been such a good useful example for me. 
If we attack changes in the kitchen as a challenge to learn rather then a sad deprivation sentence I am convinced that the finished product will be much better. 
I didn't used to like quinoa, lets face it it is no risotto! It took me a lot of playing around with it trying to figure out how to richen it up and make it seem like more than it is. In fact until I changed my goal I was never happy with it but once I decided to embrace the texture and be happy with imparting depth and richness, only then did I relax into playing with it. Once we are no longer fighting to make one thing into another and start thinking about how to complement whatever it is we are attempting to cook then things begin to come together. I now love quinoa, for me I found that the trick to teasing great flavor out of it is to toast it first, just as I would sesame seeds in a dry cast iron pan and then I choose what to cook it in from a robust mirepoix to plain old water depending on what I am using it as a bed for or serving it with. It cooks faster than rice, it never sticks, it is not finicky at all and it is packed with protein and iron. If you haven't made quinoa recently give it a try! Make sure that if you want to try toasting it that you buy pre-rinsed quinoa, and heat your broth/water while you are doing the toasting so that you get the joy of seeing the sizzling seeds hit the hot water! 
Even one small change makes a difference. I remember when I read Barbara Kingsolver's book on their experiment of gardening and eating local I came away really loving her attitude of any little change that we can embrace making a difference. (This is when I started gardening). Little differences in the kitchen can help us build a healthier foundation, they provide a platform for us to build on! Our eating habits shouldn't be about all or nothing they should be about making changes that we can be happy with and use over a sustained period of time! 

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Quieting unhelpful thoughts and welcoming balance

Knowing that I am getting ready to undertake this three month clearing diet (and the life beyond) has had some interesting affects of my brain.

It seems that I have quite a diverse audience in my head. I have the voice that says cut things out slowly so that you are eased into this and there it isn't such a jolt (or in the case of caffeine and sugar a lack of jolt). I have the quiet murmurer in the back wondering if NYC will be less fun because I have slowly cut things out now if splurge while I am there, will I feel sick if I do, will it be worth it, does that throw away over a month of cutting these foods to a minimum and negate that effort? There is also the very rude hiss from the front row that keeps brining up that I should just cut it all out now and get on with it.

The take away for me, is that this is a really good lesson in balance and control. This awesome experiment is not meant to create a disordered eating pattern or a troubled relationship with food for me. It is meant to be a learning experience for me so that I can see precisely what effect different foods have on my personal system. This will allow me to choose to make whatever choices work for me at any given time KNOWING what I can expect. Having the ability to manage our expectations is HUGE and this will do exactly that.

Having this very clear goal in mind has been really helpful.  Knowing that this is about eating for how one feels is very different than tangling with the emotional ties to food, it sort of cuts through all of the food politicians yammering in the peanut gallery of my brain.

I am not trying to deny the memories and feelings associated with different foods, I have no desire to change any of that at all. Why should I deny that cabbage and butter noodles, a stewed quince, tart warm lemon pudding just beginning to form a skin on top and pomegranates all have ties to my maternal grandmother while chewy gingery molasses cookies, granola, lemon bars, fudge, croissants, humbow and anything raspberry are wrapped in childhood memories with my mother. There are just as many foods that don't conjure up warm fond memories with these same two incredible women, turkey soup, turkey enchiladas, (actually every and anything made with turkey other than a roasted turkey dinner) liverwurst, tuna sandwiches, lima beans and ham, crunchy peanut butter just to name a few.

My point?

Food is not evil, it is what it is. The less power we give it the less of a problem it becomes, and the less chance we have of becoming a disordered eater. There will absolutely be days in my future when I choose to have a bite of my memories, both the amazing ones and the ones not so amazing as that is a distinct way of time travel and that is really going to be ok, because a bite or a serving doesn't need to change a damn thing if we are being mindful, aware eaters. One bite or serving does not predicate the next if we are in control.

My mother used to say that if a person could bottle and sell balance they would be the richest person in the world. She is right. She is almost always right.

This has been really helpful for me to remember in talking back to the peanut gallery in my head, to those all or nothing voices in my head I say say sit down! This is my journey not yours. My science experiment not yours.

I will indeed continue cutting back and keep trying recipes in preparation for this exciting science experiment, and at the same time I am going to continue to enjoy my one cappuccino a day and for now I will have as many bell peppers as I please!!!




Thursday, March 16, 2017

The project begins

This new science project has me already stocking the pantry for the months ahead and trying new recipes so that when the end of April gets here and I start the clearing phase I already have a handle on some "go to" ideas that make me happy, and a pantry and fridge that have the required ingredients!
Another thing it has me doing is getting rid of things that I won't be eating freely so that I am not tempted to mess up the clearing process or make it longer than is necessary.

I must admit that since I know that the nightshade family is going to be eliminated at least for a while (god forbid forever) I am eating more than my fair share of peppers! Its funny, I would have thought that I might want to make a batch of my moms fudge or something decadent but apparently (at least right now) I am most worried about loosing my peppers, I eat peppers every single day! In stir fry, in humus, in scrambles, pretty much in everything, they are my favorite...well next to my coffee,  I do sooo love my cappuccinos!









Wednesday, March 15, 2017

A New Journey

A new journey, but not in a completely different direction, just the beginning of walking a MUCH tighter line down the path of whole food goodness and pursuing a much more focused goal than ever before.
This time around units of energy are not in the forefront, neither is having as many veggies that I eat as possible being grown in my yard or nearby (although my gardening continues)  Units of energy are not the enemy of inflammation, neither is how close to our doorstep our food is grown. Inflammation is the primary enemy that I am choosing to fight right now with hormone imbalance and unhealthy gut bacteria following closely behind in what ever order shapes up to be the best to treat them.  I went gluten free for a year or so and before that I went sugar free for about a year and a half. Neither were a holy grail for me. Neither time that I made these changes was my life quite like it is now. Now I feel the inflammation every day. Every minute of every day. The knowledge that I can clear out some of the things causing and aggravating this inflammation has me motivated to fight with more drastic measures.
This time around I am doing this in a much different way and with a much different mind set. I have a whole team to guide me. A team who right out of the gate was straight up honest about while there is not a cure for Multiple Sclerosis there is a way to get and to keep our gut bacteria healthy and to reduce the inflammation and in turn reduce some of this pain. This is huge. There is something really annoying and demoralizing about people who want to tell you that they have a cure all for a disease that absolutely has no cure or that they know a person who cured their MS with their diet, or their spirituality or whatever other thing that ABSOLUTELY DOES NOT CURE MS so to have a medical team that promotes health and wellness and brining your body into balance in this manner while being real that there is no cure was exciting to say the least.
Appointment #1 was two hours long and fascinating to say the least. I was sent home with test kits for pretty much everything that comes out of a body (ewe)
Super excited for this science experiment to begin!